hmm feeling qt disturbed abt cell today. as in i dunno la like im not sure if im really doing the best that i can? and that somehow in the midst of it all imno longer doing it for God and because i love God but because its exoected of me and i cant let the girls down. and i feel reall bad that i dun follow thru with the plans that i make and that sometimes i forget abt them and stuff. dunno lah as in i really do love them alot but tts not enough to make you a leader right? and i want to be the best leader i can be for them but its really hard because i have so many stuff within myself that i need to deal with but i need to project that im ok for them. and i know its dumb for me to think i need to be perfect to lead them necause i know that perfection is not required but i just feel it somethimes la and someimes i just wish tt lijia could come and take the cell cos she does a better job than i do. and its like i dunno how to get them to open up to me. is it because they really have nothing to share or is it because they dun want to? and its really nice when they look out for me and give me hugs and stuff but i wonder if they would be better off under soemone else instead. dunno lah i guess really need to pray pray pray abt it :)

anyway today was qt funny haha. auntie yvonne tompang me with her brolly and gave me a lift to the mrt cos it was pouring like MAD and she had to go and rescue dave from the bussop hehs. and she kept complaining abt her new shoes. super funny. bu i was freezing ok almost froze to death in the cinema... but perfect catch is nice! haha. qt a sweet show. dan and i met jeff and aaron at tm! ahah i tell u ahz i cant go to tm and not meet someone frm church there. like seriously!!! everytime i go there i meet someone haha. ohwells its good in a way rite! means tt our church is growing haha. anyway they helped me buy earphones! yay cos my earphones like died on me haha bt now i can listen to stuff yay :)

ok im not schizo... just easily distracted